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A while back, September 3, 2014 to be exact, I wrote a piece called "Why I'm Still Single (and not a Mom)". I consider it an important post, and highly relevant to the focus of the LetsBSocial Singles Community. I haven't really talked much lately about what it feels to be single, especially what it feels to be a single woman with no kids. In addition, since I only started broadcasting again recently, I haven't talked about it on the air! I think it's time to re-introduce the topic and take a slight breather from tech and digital media. Let's get back down to earth already!

Fear is a Choice

courtesy of the Mimi's Miles Blog

I came across this awesome quote today, and even though it was relating to a woman's biking journey, I thought it applied to all aspects of life.

"Risk and dangers are real, but FEAR is a choice."

Ponder over that statement as I talk about why I'm still single (and not a Mom).

Life is a journey. Being an entrepreneur is a journey. Being single is a journey. Choosing not to bend to today's social pressures of becoming a single mom is a journey.

So why am I still single and NOT a Mom? I wasn't always single. I was married for 12 years, and was with my ex for 16. I had a great life. I was one of the very few in my milieu who was married. I was a young bride. I delayed having children because I had things I wanted to accomplish before "settling down". When I finally was ready (and actually got pregnant), I was in for a rude awakening. My husband was not into kids after all. Luckily for him, and tragically for me, I lost the pregnancy. Several months later, he walked out. Months after that, we were divorced.

At first I was very angry. He refused to talk things out with me. He was by nature a coward, and didn't like confrontation or conflict of any kind. He wasn't one for revealing his feelings. I got divorced in the dark. It plagued me for years not knowing the "why"s. At first I couldn't even imagine ever dating. Then that changed, and I dated. I no longer moved in the same social circles or work environment. Most of my good friends were no longer in New York City, and most that were still around dropped me like a hot potato. Now I was the only single one, and they were either married or in relationships. Making strong bonds later in life is difficult. Your friends are almost all women, they're probably single, and they become your competition in all facets of your life. They are all going after the same things you are, especially men. They become select about when they want to socialize with you, and believe me, it's a slim proposition! And the men, they steer clear unless they are single themselves and totally "into you". In other words, there's no such thing as a friendship with a man of value who shares your values. But isn't that what friendship is all about? The chances of meeting someone appropriate for me and whom I could envision sharing the rest of my life with, were (and still are) very slim. With the passing of each year, I began to realize that I most probably wasn't going to meet anyone who was marriage material and with whom I could have a child. And now, well, forget about it! I knew some middle aged, single women who opted for in vitro fertilization, and were happy with their choice. I considered and reconsidered this, but in the end, chose not to take that path.

Ok, so for a modern woman, and I do consider myself one, I can be a bit "old-fashioned". I was raised to believe that one had children with someone you love, not a stranger's sperm, not via a surrogate. I put adoption in another category, because there are so many children out there without parents who are in need of and deserve families. I chose not to go there, because I didn't think I would have been able to raise a child alone, and frankly, I just didn't want to! Again, I believed, and still believe, that a child should have two parents who love each other in the picture. I just never found the right guy again, but one couldn't say that I didn't try. Once upon a time, being in a relationship or getting married was the popular and accepted "solution" to a woman's "problems". I'll tell you a secret: it wasn't and isn't.

Yes, as a single woman gets older, it's hard to maintain a fulfilling social life. Oftentimes, it's non-existent, unless she works at changing the mind sets of those around her. Yes, it's very difficult, but not impossible. Other societal disruptions have taken place and stuck. It's time that the childless single woman openly owns and embraces her status. It's also time that she openly seek the communal support she needs to forge ahead. It's never easy to ask for help. Ever notice that it's easier to give than to ask? I must say, however, I am getting much better at it. Not everyone will give the answer one wants to hear, but how else will one know who will if one doesn't ask?

I'm not saying that women shouldn't undergo in vitro fertilization, surrogacy, or adoption. Do what makes you happy. I'm just saying that one shouldn't succumb to societal pressures. Stick to your beliefs and convictions and seek out those that share them. Most important, be true to yourself. It's only then that great things can happen!

There are many different ways to have children in your life without going through the "regular channels". Become a mentor to a child, teenager, or young adult. Help your siblings or friends with their kids. Become a teacher. Or perhaps you'll be lucky enough to meet a great single guy who has kids. And so on.

One reason why LetsBSocial was born.

And speaking of "pairing up", I'm still looking for someone to pair up with on Gitter. Right now I'm splitting my code-learning time between Free Code Camp and Code School to nail down Javascript for starters. The more I practice, the better I get. I also am finding that I'm much more efficient with my time because I do have so much to accomplish OUTSIDE of the code-learning experience. I still have a business to run, premium members to attract to the LetsBSocial Singles Community and Support Network (still need to pay the bills and LIVE life), broadcasts to make, keep up with the latest news, Gitter chatter, Twitter chatter, Google+ land, the occasional Facebook post to read or "Happy Birthday" to post to old childhood friends who live far away, and the very occasional visit to Linkedin, among many, many other things. I'm extremely driven to enhance my coding skills so that I can build awesome stuff for good, and therefore would make a great pairing partner. My Gitter handle is @interglobalmedia, and I will also be creating two channels called #interglobalmedia and #letsbsocial so that all that other Gitter noise from all over the world can be tuned out when necessary. I will also share information that way in case if anyone is interested in what I'm into these days. I also share cool stuff on Free Code Camp's newsfeed, so check stuff out there as well.

If anyone has something awesome and different to share regarding anything tech, singles, or digital media related, shoot me a line or make a comment here on the LetsBSocial internet radio show page, and I will try and mention it during the next show. No SPAMMERS please! Thanks for listening, and ciao for now!

This post was originally published on the LetsBSocial Singles Community and Support Network Blog March 27, 2015 and subsequently broadcast live on the LetsbSocial Internet Radio Show on Spreaker.com. Broadcast available at the top of the page.